i walked for miles thinking about you
unsure of how work this out.
you run to me like i am a savior
but honey i just don’t know how.
you think that i can fix you
put my warm hands to work
but they are so cold.
like your lips,
your blue lips that once wanted to
but there is no life left in them
i can’t get this vision out of my head
of you soaking in a pool of blood.
i am begging you to stop
but you keep cutting deeper
tally marks against your skin like you
are counting all the times i could have
saved you before
but didn’t know how.
these images of blood soaked through your
i am crying, tears soaking through my pillow.
the rhythm reminding me of your heartbeat.
honey, you think you are saving me from yourself
you think you are the devil
but i am seeing an angel behind that mask.
i don’t know how to tell you to
please stay home,
people care for you,
i care for you,
without you not believing me.